Life threw me a curveball.
A few months ago, I delivered a beautiful baby girl. She came early and fast and frankly, I was not ready…although is one ever REALLY ready for a child? Its been a wild ride full of strange and wonderful adventures, but somewhere along the line my libido checked out – like fully vanished. I knew this was a possibility but I never thought it would actually affect me. Very strange.
It feels like the last thing in the world I feel like I have time for is relighting my fire – it’s challenging balancing being super mom with work while leaving a smidgen of extra time for myself and for my marriage…the kinky deviant inside of me is going to have to do without for a while. That’s just how it is.
And yet I know the reemergence of my inner freeek is only inevitable. Even now, the dreams I have are wildly kinky at times. And late at night, while I try and fall asleep, I keep fantasizing about breastmilk spraying scenes. Its an odd balance.
So yes, I am still here. I still have stories to tell. I still have one or two products to review. But I’m busy being a mom right now and that’s part of me I am probably not going to share. I’ll get back to this, slowly but surely, as I get better at balancing my time (and get more and more sleep).
But right now, you don’t want to hear what I have to say, because its mainly about cloth diapers, breastfeeding and pumping, baby sleep patterns and teething. Because, seriously, who needs yet another mom blog?