Curveball

Life threw me a curveball.

A few months ago, I delivered a beautiful baby girl. She came early and fast and frankly, I was not ready…although is one ever REALLY ready for a child? Its been a wild ride full of strange and wonderful adventures, but somewhere along the line my libido checked out – like fully vanished. I knew this was a possibility but I never thought it would actually affect me. Very strange.

It feels like the last thing in the world I feel like I have time for is relighting my fire – it’s challenging balancing being super mom with work while leaving a smidgen of extra time for myself and for my marriage…the kinky deviant inside of me is going to have to do without for a while. That’s just how it is.

And yet I know the reemergence of my inner freeek is only inevitable. Even now, the dreams I have are wildly kinky at times. And late at night, while I try and fall asleep, I keep fantasizing about breastmilk spraying scenes. Its an odd balance.

So yes, I am still here. I still have stories to tell. I still have one or two products to review. But I’m busy being a mom right now and that’s part of me I am probably not going to share. I’ll get back to this, slowly but surely, as I get better at balancing my time (and get more and more sleep).

But right now, you don’t want to hear what I have to say, because its mainly about cloth diapers, breastfeeding and pumping, baby sleep patterns and teething. Because, seriously, who needs yet another mom blog?

3 Responses to “Curveball”

  1. MrBill Says:

    Congratulations! Having a child is the most wonderful thing in the world. However there are some sleepless nights, etc. when you are sure it is the worst thing you can do to yourself.
    Remember, it will pass and everything will be better.
    I’m sure your libido will come back too. I remember some extremely hot sex while the baby was sleeping. Great thing is they sleep through everything. Then comes the years where you have to worry about them hearing you and not much happens.
    After 25 years of marriage, we are having some awesome sex now. Hint: it’s due to my finding out about female led marriage.
    We are both enjoying it a lot!
    Best wishes with motherhood and good luck to your husband who has gone from #1 to #3.

  2. Acompanhantes de Brasilia Says:

    [...]A few months ago, I delivered a beautiful baby girl. She came early and fast and frankly, I was not ready…although is one ever REALLY ready for a child?[...] very nice

  3. SneakersAndPearls Says:

    Congrats on your new baby! Sorry about the drop in libido. It happens, but it will come back! And I used cloth diapers on my kids, too.

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